What I have, what I am
Everyone seems to be posting about "what they have" "who they are" and things along this line. It's great to see people know who they are, and what they have accomplished, but I don't like the slamming going on.
You see, in my life, everything I have, everything I am, is thanks to my husband. Without him, I can honestly say, I do not know where I would be, and I would have nothing.
Things were pretty bad for a while in my life. I lost track of who I was. The only positive I had was my children. No dreams to follow, or goals to achieve. I was on a downward spiral. Then Jason and I began a relationship.
For those of you who know my husband, he wasn't in a good place himself back then. I guess you could say we saved each other. Lots of bumps in the road at the beginning, but we never gave up. Both of us knew we could be a better person, and we are.
What do I have?
My true self back. The girl who doesn't take crap, who always speaks her mind. I try to be respectful, helping, and understanding in most situations. I also got my ambition back.
This is how I got the courage to publish book 1.
Jason didn't even know I wrote a book.
When I had the ability to open the file once again (it was lost for a time), I decided to actually finish writing it. The novel was almost complete, only needed a few chapters to end it, so I did. Then I began to edit, and get feedback on it. Finally, I put it on Kobo. The day I did was the day I sat him down, and told him that I had wrote a book, that it was going to be a series, and I published it. From that point on I kept pushing forward with my writing. The novels are now available on many platforms, and there are 5 of them out there.
Without him making me feel confident with myself, I would never have taken the leap. Although he isn't a reader himself, he is always proud of me when I complete a new novel, and put it out there to be judged by the world.
I work three jobs: writer, Epicure consultant, and crossing guard. None of them pay well, but I do bring in a little money. Jason is the breadwinner for sure in this house. I dream of the day when I can provide for us with my writing. No I don't want to be a household name, I just want to make enough to not need 2 other jobs, and maybe take a vacation now and then.
For now, I will stick with camping.
Thank you Jason for providing me with confidence, and the ability to work lame jobs that let me focus on my writing.
Now, go buy a book!